Nobody Told Me It’d Be This Hard

Selling out my first course. Pulling off a kick-ass launch. Connecting with my right people exactly when they need me to. Skipping to the bank with a huge smile on my face.

What a pipe dream.

Nobody told me it’d be this hard.

I knew I’d have to hustle, yes, but I didn’t know I’d leave skin behind every time. I didn’t know I’d put myself out there and feel trampled on with hobnailed boots. I didn’t know I’d give everything I had and find it wasn’t enough.

As you may or may not know, I created The Live Raw, Fiery, & BOLD Academy specifically to help women step into their power and live their dreams. Act on their desires. Give themselves permission to go big + luscious.

Sounds good, right? I thought so too.

I felt called to do it, so I did. Spread the word as often as I could and for a while, everything was just great. I was creating from a pure place and oh, life was sweet.

Then.

Then.

Nothing was happening. Everyone who read the copy said it was amazing and looked great and they wished me well. But nobody was buying. I bartered with 2 friends and filled those slots, but no one else. A couple people said they’d try to raise money and attend.

And I asked myself, “If it’s so amazing, why isn’t it working?” 

Nobody told me it’d be this hard. Nobody told me I’d risk getting my heart broken anew every day.

Would I still have gone ahead if I knew? *Shrug* Maybe. Continue reading

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A Credo for Creative Freedom

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You are free to create from a genuinely pure place and express what needs to be said, seen, heard, and appreciated.

You are free to do your best work by saying what’s true to you and what you feel deep inside.

You are free to push the envelope and do something wildly different from everyone else.

You are free to challenge anyone — society, pundits, artists . . . even yourself.

You are free to be remarkable — travel the world in 5 years; become an expert vegan chef for fun; make your kids smile as you raise them to be beautiful human beings from the inside out.

You are free to choose — love, heart, destiny.

You are free to co-create your reality: what do you long for? What excites you? How do you want to FEEL?

You are free to reinvent yourself again and again as you discover deeper, truer layers of yourself.

You are free to move, stir your blood, and ride the wave of inspiration that follows.

You are free to crackle with neon energy.

You are free to be still for 10 minutes every day and renew your mind.

You are free to ask for exactly what you want, when you want it, and how you want it. 

You are free to give your dreams + desires room to swirl + bloom into being.

You are free to love your art with all your heart — and strip away every facet that no longer serves you or your tribe. 

You are free to build a vibrant, interactive community that pushes you to create your best art.

You are free to be as intense and wildly energetic as you wish.

You are free to operate with new paradigms that reshape your reality and the world around you.

You are free to fail as you tread the path to greatness.

You are free to start and finish your dream projects.

You are free to ship when you don’t think you’re ready.

You are free to launch even when you’re scared shitless.

You are free to care enough to give, be, and do your best. Every time.

You are free to be a soulful creative.

You are free to be . . .  you.

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Post-Launch Blues + Gremlin Views

“Yay, my page’s getting traction!”

“I’ve gotten mad props for my style. WOOT!”

“Check out all the shares, yo!”

Cricket, cricket.

“No one’s buying. No one’s engaging. Oh fuck WHAT DID I DO WRONG?!?!”

Just a few of the thoughts bouncing around my head since I launched The Live Raw, Fiery, & BOLD Academy last Tuesday.

I know my offer’s solid + there’s crazy value.

I’ve been told it’s amazing + just what people need.

But I can’t seem to connect with the women who need it most.

Not yet, anyway.

Now that the euphoria’s gone and I’m walking on earth again, I find myself fretting over the absence of reader engagement.

Where are my right people? What am I doing wrong? Does anybody LOVE me?

See what I’m doing? Feeling like a failure just because things aren’t going exactly as I want them to. Ready to pull the plug already even though it’s only been a week and this IS a slow launch, after all.

Inhale. Exhaaale. Deep yogic breathing and shit.

How often have our gremlins scared us into dropping projects that just needed a little more time to develop?

How many dreams have been picked apart and discarded because we forced ourselves to do it perfect or not at all?

How much joy has been lost because we let worries and gremlin views trump level-headedness?

I’m guessing way too many times to count, yes?

So let’s switch it up. Let’s switch it WAY up, yo.

Let it be fun.

Let it be easy.

Let it be what comes naturally.

Let it be stronger than your fear + deeper than you dare.

It’s not about runaway success and instant fame.

It’s not about glossy perfection and shiny bonuses.

It’s about touching a heart so deeply she says, “Yes. THIS. This is what I needed right now. Thank you.”

It’s about airing your truth and trusting it’ll resonate with your right people as you do the legwork.

It’s about showing up and sticking it out even when you wanna pack it in and tiptoe away. 

Sometimes it’s messy.

You get an idea, flesh it out, execute, and end up with egg on your face.

You follow the call, give your all, and it’s still not enough.

Do you stop trying, or do you stop worrying?

Stop worrying. It gives you wrinkles and that unpleasant catch in your heart.

Feel free to switch things up and change your habits, your methods . . . even your reason for being.

Feel free to do anything, as long as it moves you forward and keeps you grounded in your truth.

We all stumble at some point. We all fall. Some of us don’t, can’t, or won’t get up.

Be one of those who do.

Be one of those who radiate: love. possibility. action. revolution.

Be one of those who survive post-launch blues + gremlin views.

How?

Easy.

Jam with your feel-good posse.

Sing out loud to your favourite tunes.

Celebrate your launch (or lack thereof if you kept it REAL simple).

Rest. Sleep. Hydrate.

And don’t let the bastard gremlins grind you down.

Can I get a witness!

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Introducing The Live Raw, Fiery, & BOLD Academy

I unveiled my blog page for The Live Raw, Fiery, & BOLD Academy earlier today.

I am nervous. Miffed at some tech glitches. Worried it doesn’t look professional enough.

But on the other hand . . .

I’m STOKED. Juiced. Excited to finally reveal this to the world. Titillated by the women I plan to interview. In awe of the big beautiful vision beckoning me, pulling me forward.

I am helpless to resist.

I don’t WANT to resist.

I want to plug into the flow and ride the wave of inspiration; dig deep and discover the hot jewels waiting to enrich my course.

I am creating.

I am ALIVE.

I’m birthing this from my soul. From deep within I’m listening and teasing out what I yearn to know and teach; things I didn’t even know I knew flowing forth and blowing my mind, pointing me in the direction of my new life and my destiny.

I feel excited. Truly, madly, deeply, excited. For me. For what I’m doing. For my life and my present. For being in this very moment and drinking in its juice. Like I’m being pulled forward by my inner goddess, by the Divine urging me to heights ever purer and ever sweeter.

I’m letting go of “but what will people say?” and tuning into “how does this make me feel inside?”

I’m unfurling into what I plan to teach my ladies: big, beautiful, luscious awareness of my spirit + what she’s dying to create.

Launching even when I don’t feel ready. Willing to make mistakes so I can learn from them. Willing to fail because it’s still a step closer to where I wanna be.

I feel love. Peace. Joy. I feel like bright shiny colours are dancing around and with my soul. I feel like sunshine’s streaming through my veins. I feel like miracles are bubbling and coming into being.

I feel open. Fresh. Grateful. I feel like my soul’s being tickled by big juicy visions of my destiny. I feel like I’m becoming more of who I was born to be.

I feel . . . me. :)

Everything I need is coming to me at the exact moment I gotta have it. God has my back. The universe is delivering. I’m plugged into energy that has my neurons firing + my heart dancing and creating.

I feel life force bubbling in my veins. I feel . . . more alive than I’ve ever been.

I feel.

I FEEL.

That’s the difference, really. Feeling.

I’m not numb anymore. I’m not swathed in lethargy anymore.

I’m open to feeling. I’m able to feel.

Everything: the joy, the anger, the compassion, life.

I can feel.

I can FEEL!

That’s why I feel so alive. It’s why I’m excited. Why my heart is full.

I haven’t been able to stop beaming all day.

I. Can. Feel. Yeah, baby. 

My heart is blessed with love + light + energy. Oh yes.

And let me tell you, it is AMAZING. :D

PS: Friday vlogs are on hold ’cause I’m hip-deep in creating content for the Academy. Maybe they’ll return once I’m up and running. Or not. Thoughts?

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Supremely Bored? Try These On For Size

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Make 30-second personalised videos your new calling card: Instead of a short email, shoot an even shorter video and make a lasting impact on your recipient. Feel the boom. :D

Take a 15-minute walk with music stroking your ears. Your mind and body will thank you.

Write yourself a love note and read it out loud. Bonus points: write one to a person who rocks your world. Lob some love bombs, people.

Make a mind map of your deepest desires. Choose one to act on today and another for this week. Rinse and repeat.

Treat yourself to a pricey beverage and relish every sip. Caramel hot chocolate, anyone?

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Why You Should Care About What I Do

Greetings! How’s it going?

Today’s the first of my Friday vlogs, and I talk about how you discover more of the amazing in you.

Watch this short video (only 1 min and 4 secs!) and let me know what you think.

http://youtu.be/Cc2HW_S4BiI

NB: Sunday love notes are on hold this weekend because of the unusual number of posts this week.

See you on Tuesday!

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First Video: Yea or Nay?

Hey, life lover!

This is a short and sweet post to announce that I’ve made my first video (WOOT!) and I couldn’t wait to share it with you.

I wanna make it a regular feature on Fridays, but I need your help to do it.

So! Please watch the video below and let me know what you think. You can comment here or over on YouTube.

http://youtu.be/WBKGP-k-Njw

Deal?

All right: ready, set, GO!

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Back To This Moment

Come back.

Back to this moment.

Back to this second.

Back to the present.

Here and now.

Free yourself from the past.

Take a break from your anticipation of the future, divine and gorgeous as it’s gonna be.

Revel in the now. Your capacity to create. Your willingness to feel. Your openness to love.

Come back to now, and live your life for real without getting lost in your thoughts.

Come back to this moment, and live out here without hiding away in your head + worries.

Come back to now, and witness the beauty unfurling in every moment.

Now is what you have.

Now is what’s real.

Now is what passes by in a split second and constantly shifts depending on your focus and energy.

So my love, come back to now, and relish this moment.

Shalom.

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On Living For Real From The Inside Out

I died 2 weeks ago.

Not literally, because I didn’t have an out-of-body experience or live through a horrific car crash.

I died to my pain and hurt and sense of being wronged.

Since this is primarily a space for us to grow and shine together, I try to keep my posts as upbeat and practical as I can. I’m able to pull it off most of the time.

But today, I need to discuss the death of my former self: the one so wrapped up in the past she couldn’t cope with the present or future; the one so weighed down by anger she couldn’t express that she literally curled into a ball for the greater part of 5 years.

I’m reclaiming my identity from the lost soul I once was. I’m discovering more of who I am now that I’m freeing up the space that held grudges and rank energy.

Have you ever been so wrapped up in a mistake or trauma that you made it your identity?

Have you ever believed that just because someone didn’t or couldn’t love you, you were inherently unloveable and unworthy of good things happening to you?

I have. Continue reading

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Radiate: Love. Possibility. Action. Revolution.

Hey, life lover! What’s new with ya?

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about why I come on here to write to you. Here’s what I’ve got so far:

I want you to live raw, fiery, & BOLD.

I want to wake you up and snap you out of feeling unworthy, unable or “not ready” to pursue your desires.

I want to echo the little voice inside that whispers what’s possible and add strength to the push to follow what it says.

I want to infuse you with high-voltage energy so potent you’re raring to get out there and kick some ass.

What’s holding you back from being your fullest self? What’s stopping you from starting a personal revolution to rock your world and spread some goodness in your community?

Are you worried that no one will care? That they’ll laugh at you? That you don’t have the time or money to follow your dream?

You don’t have to start a side business. You don’t have to quit your job or travel the world unless you really want to. You just have to be open to your heart.

Be open to your heart.

What are you yearning for? What’s keeping you up at night and shadowing every waking thought?

That’s your soul’s purpose. That’s your calling.

Glow with your purpose. Give in to the urge to bless us with your special gifts. I believe your purpose is founded on love and faith and brilliance, and I truly believe your life will be so much richer if you allow yourself dance with your soul’s calling.

Radiate love. For yourself. For the world. For your thoughts. Show yourself as much love as you shower on your family and friends.

Radiate possibility. Believe in your ideas. Nourish them. Give them fertile soil to bloom and grow. See opportunities where others see roadblocks.

Dance with faith. Leap into the unknown. Your intuition will not ask of you more than you have to give, nor will it give you a task greater than you can handle. Believe in your strength.

Face down fear with action. Don’t know which way to turn, which choice is right? There’s only one way to find out: act.

Take the first step. Take a series of steps. Sign up for that class. Book that trip. Make the ask. Give the love. Give your all.

Radiate revolution. We’re creating whole new paradigms to replace the ones that’re crumbling. Don’t you want to add your unique spin to things?

Erin Giles created End Sex Trafficking Day and raised $10,000 within 29 days to publish the book End Sex Trafficking.

Danielle LaPorte called us all to become Fire Starters in her life-changing book The Fire Starter Sessions.

Natalie Sisson created the $100 Change Initiative to mentor folks who wanted to make explosive changes within 100 days. There were also 10 scholarships worth $500 to help 10 lucky souls launch their idea/project/business. Cool, huh?

How are you going to make your mark in the global community?

You get to choose how you show up in the world. You get to choose how you live your days. Will you shrink back from the promise, or will you step forward into your calling?

I choose the latter. Who’s with me?

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